Being Betrayed Again....

Damn...
I've been betrayed again
He said he'll wouldn't hurt me
Until he fucked up behind my back
Why does my heart always fall into the wrong hands
Especially when it's someone I trust
Damn...
I hate being betrayed
When I've falling in love with a complete stranger
But in my heart
I felt like we were close
Until he stabs me in the back and through my heart
Now I cry silently
Knowing the he won't do the right thing
Damn....
My hopeless emotions are getting the best of me again
Cause now I'm woundering:
Should I give up on him and let him go
Or....
Keep holding on and hope and prey for the better....
But one way or the other
I don't want to be betrayed again
Because if I do.....
*sighs* My heart will forever be cold as ice
And never to love man again....

Maybe It's Better This Way.....

Maybe it's better this way
To let death take me
I fail to live up to my standers
So why should I care anymore
Maybe it's better this way
To let the heat kill me slowly
I can't fight it
Too tired, too weak
And I can't force myself to leave it
Maybe it's better this way
To never eat food again
Too hot to move
Too hot to care
And certainly too hot to even believe anymore

I've Lost Hope

That's it
I can't take it anymore
My life is over
It was great while it lasted
But now
M body can't take it
My mind is loosing it
My heart no longer lives for it
Just when I thought that I was saved
It quickly turns against me the next
Now I'm suffering
And I want it all to end
The heat, hatred, and pain
I can't bare it any longer
I don't have the strength to go on
Just leave me alone
This damn life is not wroth living on.

I Feel....

I feel sadness
I feel depressed
I have no one to reach to
I feel lonely
I feel cold
I have nowhere to go to
I can't find the light
I can only see darkness
I can't sleep
Nor can I eat
So stiff and hollow
I wounder if this is a dream....
Or a pity horror reality....

For One As I

For some, there is hope
For others, there are dreams
But for as I, there is none
For some, there is happiness
For others, there is love
But for one as I, there is none
For some, there is life
For others, there is joy
But for one as I, there....is none.